a decade of blessing
March 10, 2010
:: i am taking a quick break from the bustle of today to shout out to blogland: happy 10th birthday to my most precious maddie!!
i will post some pics from today later, but for now …
last week, i found this letter that i had written to madison on my first mother’s day, 2000 … she was just a few months old. this excerpt stands out in my heart and mind today:
“Before you were born, I would think ahead to when you grew older – a toddler, a preschooler, etc – and I felt apprehensive. I could fathom a baby in my life but the rest scared me! Oh how different it is now!! Now I can’t wait for your growth, because I can’t wait to watch you as you change, as your personality develops. I am thrilled at the thought of getting to have you as my daughter forever – seeing you grow into a beautiful girl. You are already so gorgeous, how could you get any cuter?! And your spirit is already so amazing. Thank GOD for you.”
Wow. I read that to Maddie last week and choked up …
I can still relate to that feeling of apprehension and inadequacy: a teenager?! Will I possibly be able to meet the challenges of that time?
and yet what i know now is that GOD supplies all of my needs and equips me for every stage and every area in which i lack (and there are many). and along the way, there is blessing untold and joy that i couldn’t fathom back on the day i wrote this letter. my baby girl has grown in to a beautiful girl, on the cusp of so many changes and so much growth. i thank GOD for the gift of being her mama.