homeschooling highs and lows
May 10, 2010
being a homeschooling mom brings with it such a roller coaster of emotions and thoughts, generally falling somewhere in the range of: are we doing enough? to, are we doing too much?
finding that rhythm and balance took us some time and even now, knowing as we do that this is the right thing for our girl right now, there are still moments of honest struggle and questioning.
today, we were perusing homeschool books in barnes and noble and i picked up a workbook for a subject that we have not studied this year. as i thumbed through the pages, i was hit with uneasiness: have i failed miserably by not teaching her this? will she fall terribly behind? should i buy it and have her do an accelerated study, quickly??
i held the book, ready to make the purchase and rectify the wrong that i had certainly done in teaching my girl. but even in that moment, thank GOD, another part of me was remembering: keep focused on the big stuff, emily. if she didn’t learn this one detail but learned so many deeper, foundational truths, isn’t that enough? and since this is the first year, isn’t it ok that we didn’t cover every base but instead dove in with love and passion, enjoying the journey together?
and, the barnes and noble story continues =): my hubby came over and we looked together through the workbook. we agreed that yes, this is important for madison to learn at this time. it is not a crisis and it is not a reflection on me (i’ve failed miserably! i am not cut out for this!) but instead a simple matter of deciding that yes, we can incorporate this piece of learning in to our days in a fluid way; yes, she is ready to learn this and there is space in our learning schedule for this to happen. so, we bought the workbook. (and a few others!! =)
along these same lines, my heart was immeasurably blessed by a conversation i had with madison last week. we were driving by the school she attended last year, and i asked her, “do you think that you are learning as much at home as you learned at school last year?” it was an honest, genuine question.
and she responded, “mama, i think i am learning more.” more!! she then explained that now she is reading real BOOKS; many of them, not just segments out of a larger reading book. my girl is reading and loving books! that alone is so sweet … thank GOD.