REJOICING! A miracle is growing …

September 5, 2010

9/3/10 miracle =)

my heart is so full as i truly believe the reality of this miracle growing within.

it’s been a long journey … filled with enormous grief last year, in the loss of our baby when i was (finally) pregnant. and in the year-plus since then, i’ve been longing and praying and hoping, so deeply.

and on the morning of august 7, 2010 … there were 2 little lines!!! i texted the pic of the test to jaina, who wrote back, ‘omg omg omg yes!!!!!!!!!!!!’.  mike and i lay in bed, laughing and smiling. seriously!? =) i told maddie that afternoon because, how could i hold  in the joy and more than that, WHY?

i was determined to not let fear dictate my steps. and for the first few days, i didn’t. i rejoiced, i shared, i celebrated.

but then it hit: this indescribable anxiety, fear, worry … that something would happen, that something was wrong. that once again, we might lose this miracle. i am thankful for a few of my closest girlfriends who have walked this journey of miscarriage and understood, offering listening ears and validation.

still, i wanted freedom from the dark cloud hanging over this BLESSING God has given.  so, i meditated on His Word, sought prayer and most of all, sought Him. and i am so thankful to say that last week, i felt a supernatural peace. the dark cloud really lifted; i felt a contentment and HOPE.

and speaking of HOPE, i had a word spoken over me when i was in the ‘eye of the storm’ a couple weeks ago.  that word of HOPE will remain with me and for which i thank GOD … that He loves and speaks to us, through His people, at just the right time.

SO, i am thankful and rejoicing! and despite not feeling good physically (will the queasiness ever lift? and where did my energy go – another nap, really??) i am GLAD.

“see now that I myself am HE! there is no god besides me. I put to death and I bring to life; I have wounded and I will heal.” deut 32:39

“now may the LORD of peace Himself give you peace at all times and in every way.” 2 thess 3:16

“be joyful always … ” 1 thess 5:16

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6 Responses to “REJOICING! A miracle is growing …”

  1. liz Says:

    Hooray! The baby looks like a little bean 🙂 So, so thrilled for you. Do you know your due date yet?

  2. home2learn Says:

    thanks, liz!! yes, about april 16 … i am 8 1/2 weeks!!

  3. jani Says:

    Congratulations!!!
    🙂
    xo

  4. Patty Says:

    Oh Emily! I am so thrilled for you! Miss you alot, keep me up to date with the stages 🙂

    Love,

    Patty

  5. home2learn Says:

    patty, i miss you, too! i will keep you posted. =) hugs!


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