it’s sweet, but it isn’t easy

November 28, 2012

i wrote a status update this morning on facebook. i shared the gratitude i was feeling for being home today, having no need to hurry somewhere early but being able to be home with my family … learning, schooling, chasing babies (and making homemade pizzas for lunch!)

not an hour after posting that, i was holding a fussy baby, attempting to teach a math lesson while my head pounded with a throbbing headache.

the contrast struck me immediately: this was a far cry from the loveliness i had savored and shared only a short time earlier.

i realized that if someone read only that snapshot, they might (mistakenly) think that all is glowing and rosy and happy in our little corner of the world. and often, it is! we are truly blessed.

but the reality is that this lifestyle we’ve chosen – to homeschool and all be home together – is very difficult. there is a ceaselessness (is that a word?!) in my mothering … there are no breaks. i have a daughter who, thankfully and awesomely, prefers to be with us/me. ( i know that someday i will long for this very thing!). i have two babies who depend on mama for life and love 24/7 (and milk!!, says caleb). we do all of our learning and living in a relatively small space.

and yet, i wouldn’t trade this GIFT of spending these brief and fleeting days raising,training up, teaching and guiding my babies for anything. there is something indescribable about the countless moments of breakthrough and growth and maturity (GOD shaping me!) and connection and laughter that we share.

i guess i just want to keep it real and not give some idyllic image that doesn’t match the nitty-gritty joyful crazy reality 🙂


2 Responses to “it’s sweet, but it isn’t easy”

  1. jaw123456 Says:

    Beautifully and truthfully shared my friend! Being home truly takes more work, and sacrifice than any other work I have ever endeavored to accomplish. And you are so right, it is a tremendous gift! Much love to you and your growing family!

  2. Leaves Heal Says:

    Mothering… *parenting has been a dying art for a long time… we’ve been left with dry bones, but we’re coming back from the dead, Mama– it’s not easy, but it *is beautiful.

    Ezekiel 37:
    1The hand of YHWH was upon me, and He brought me out by the Spirit of YHWH and set me down in the middle of the valley; and it was full of bones. 2He caused me to pass among them round about, and behold, there were very many on the surface of the valley; and lo, they were very dry. 3He said to me, “Son of man, can these bones live?” And I answered, “O Lord YHWH, You know.” 4Again He said to me, “Prophesy over these bones and say to them, ‘O dry bones, hear the word of the YHWH.’ 5“Thus says the Lord YHWH to these bones, ‘Behold, I will cause breath to enter you that you may come to life. 6‘I will put sinews on you, make flesh grow back on you, cover you with skin and put breath in you that you may come alive; and you will know that I am YHWH.’”

    7So I prophesied as I was commanded; and as I prophesied, there was a noise, and behold, a rattling; and the bones came together, bone to its bone. 8And I looked, and behold, sinews were on them, and flesh grew and skin covered them; but there was no breath in them. 9Then He said to me, “Prophesy to the breath, prophesy, son of man, and say to the breath, ‘Thus says the Lord YHWH, “Come from the four winds, O breath, and breathe on these slain, that they come to life.”’” 10So I prophesied as He commanded me, and the breath came into them, and they came to life and stood on their feet, an exceedingly great army.

    11Then He said to me, “Son of man, these bones are the whole house of Israel; behold, they say, ‘Our bones are dried up and our hope has perished. We are completely cut off.’ 12“Therefore prophesy and say to them, ‘Thus says the Lord YHWH, “Behold, I will open your graves and cause you to come up out of your graves, My people; and I will bring you into the land of Israel. 13“Then you will know that I am YHWH, when I have opened your graves and caused you to come up out of your graves, My people. 14“I will put My Spirit within you and you will come to life, and I will place you on your own land. Then you will know that I, YHWH, have spoken and done it,” declares YHWH.’”

    15The word of YHWH came again to me saying, 16“And you, son of man, take for yourself one stick and write on it, ‘For Judah and for the sons of Israel, his companions’; then take another stick and write on it, ‘For Joseph, the stick of Ephraim and all the house of Israel, his companions.’ 17“Then join them for yourself one to another into one stick, that they may become one in your hand. 18“When the sons of your people speak to you saying, ‘Will you not declare to us what you mean by these?’ 19say to them, ‘Thus says the Lord YHWH, “Behold, I will take the stick of Joseph, which is in the hand of Ephraim, and the tribes of Israel, his companions; and I will put them with it, with the stick of Judah, and make them one stick, and they will be one in My hand.”’ 20“The sticks on which you write will be in your hand before their eyes. 21“Say to them, ‘Thus says the Lord YHWH, “Behold, I will take the sons of Israel from among the nations where they have gone, and I will gather them from every side and bring them into their own land; 22and I will make them one nation in the land, on the mountains of Israel; and one king will be king for all of them; and they will no longer be two nations and no longer be divided into two kingdoms. 23“They will no longer defile themselves with their idols, or with their detestable things, or with any of their transgressions; but I will deliver them from all their dwelling places in which they have sinned, and will cleanse them. And they will be My people, and I will be their God.

    24“My servant David will be king over them, and they will all have one shepherd; and they will walk in My ordinances and keep My statutes and observe them. 25“They will live on the land that I gave to Jacob My servant, in which your fathers lived; and they will live on it, they, and their sons and their sons’ sons, forever; and David My servant will be their prince forever. 26“I will make a covenant of peace with them; it will be an everlasting covenant with them. And I will place them and multiply them, and will set My sanctuary in their midst forever. 27“My dwelling place also will be with them; and I will be their God, and they will be My people. 28“And the nations will know that I am YHWH who sanctifies Israel, when My sanctuary is in their midst forever.”’”

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