celebrating!!

October 30, 2016

amazing, how much pure joy & gratitude can fill a day! and one that starts with radiation, no less. ๐Ÿ™‚

thursday, october 27 marked the final day of 33 radiation treatments, every morning at 8:15am, and oh my gosh i was SO ready, so done. this morning ritual was a dark spot on every day and on my final drive there, i was beaming.

 

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(pick a robe every morning)

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(i always used this same dressing room – crazy creature of habit i guess :))

i felt the love and warmth around me even as i arrived alone that morning, as i had texts and messages and virtual hugs already surrounding me. and then, i was blown away when i walked out of the dressing room in to the waiting room to find a dear kindred friend there! waiting with hugs and joy! (and the gift of her presence in that place means even more as it was revisiting hard places she’d walked years back with her beloved). she recognized the tech, bruce, who came out to bring me back – and she reminded him that he needed to play “hit the road jack” during my final treatment. yes!

 

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i lay on the table, laughing and with tears rolling down my cheeks as that song blared and i was finished and gave hugs to bruce & kalvin. done!

next was our thursday morning bible study & preschool, followed by an invite from grandma to come to her house for a bowl of soup on that rainy day. perfect. as we finished lunch, my precious aunt nancy arrived with these beauties, and more hugs and love.

 

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when we arrived home, there was a note at the door that a flower delivery had been attempted … it arrived a couple of hours later and again i was just completely blown away. so much kindness from a friend who lives in colorado, who has walked this hard road.

 

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mid-afternoon, the crashing radiation fatigue hit and i tucked in to our cozy bed, sunlight and big puffy clouds out my window, and took a lovely short nap while hubby picked up maddie from school.

then it was time to get ready for our date – the most crazy generous gift ever from heather, offering to have our boys come over (plus kids of our other best friend) so 8 kids under age 9 for the evening while we got dinner out. oh yes!

 

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i sat in her driveway, smiling through tears reading her card filled with words of such deep encouragement and love … then hubby and i tucked in to a booth at a local restaurant and filled our bellies with yummy food, fabulous red wine, and heart-filling conversation, dreaming of things ahead.

 

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the celebration started even earlier than thursday … and thinking of it even now overwhelms my heart. one of my best girlfriends invited me and our other bestie out to a celebration dinner tuesday night. we sat for hours, and they spoke words over me, having seen me at my darkest and hardest and lowest, knowing this journey so intimately. ย we cried and hugged and truly celebrated. i couldn’t have walked this hard road without them and i can think few things as life-giving and soul-lifting as being truly seen and completely loved. carried by love; such grace and gift, this kind of friendship.

a little hello

May 31, 2014

it’s been so long. life has been intense these days – a word i keep coming back to, and fitting. self-employment, long long work hours for hubby, unstable income, parenting challenges, 2 small and nonstop boys, josiah’s consuming skin issues and subsequent sleeplessness. three years of fatigue and sleeplessness *does begin to impact one’s sanity, i’ve concluded. it’s pretty real.

that said, it’s also a time of fullness – and growth. a precious dear friend said this to me last week: this is one of the most difficult but also one of the most valuable times of my life (her words were more eloquent). indeed. for starters, we are completely dependent on GOD’s provision and have experienced it and HIM in ways that we *never* would have, were we still ensconced in the system of jobs and steady paychecks.

hard and good.

and i am being stretched way beyond my capacity and skills as a parent, particularly with my precious teenage daughter. my instincts are just not there – or really, my instincts lean way too far toward the comfort and happiness of my child. i *know* what i want as far as character training and i *know* the deep lessons and discipling that i am called to do and yet i fall so short. i am so thankful for a partner with ย great wisdom, strong instincts and who is the leader GOD has given our family. and most of all, i am seeing that perhaps in this area of struggle and lack, GOD is really calling me to HIM: to His strength that He promises for me, His wisdom that he generously supplies. oh, that i would move quickly out of discouragement (self-focus, really) and look UP.

and now, for a few pictures? many of these are repeats from instagram ( oh, i love that social media outlet that allows sharing of lives through pictures!) …

this is happening right now: my beloved, taking the boys on an adventure, sporting the dora backpack filled with snacks and drinks :))

this is happening right now: my beloved, taking the boys on an adventure, sporting the dora backpack filled with snacks and drinks :))

 

 

yesterday, when he figured out he could spray me! cracking up!

yesterday, when he figured out he could spray me! cracking up!

 

and another, because Oh.My.Word.

and another, because Oh.My.Word.

 

 

a little painting time with my boys which they love - for about 15 minutes. a ton of mess and effort but worth it  :)

a little painting time with my boys which they love – for about 15 minutes. a ton of mess and effort but worth it ๐Ÿ™‚

 

 

this boy is serious and unwavering in his love for balls. all balls. last week, it was the basketball at the park - watched these folks mesmerized by the ball for several minutes.

this boy is serious and unwavering in his love for balls. all balls. last week, it was the basketball at the park – watched these folks mesmerized by the ball for several minutes.

 

 

my big boy, at the same park last week.he is fearless with slides!

my big boy, at the same park last week.he is fearless with slides!

 

 

*such a fun time at sweet zeke's 4th bday party last week. love those bigboys

*such a fun time at sweet zeke’s 4th bday party last week. love those bigboys

 

 

speaking of big boys (lol), where did my baby go?!

speaking of big boys (lol), where did my baby go?!

 

 

loving our time with dear friends and their littles - the boys love their friends, i love my mama friends, and love the sweet learning (sharing, playing together, etc). good stuff. especially with friends who show abundant grace, don't sweat the small stuff like messes and funky kid's behavior, etc.

loving our time with dear friends and their littles – the boys love their friends, i love my mama friends, and love the sweet learning (sharing, playing together, etc). good stuff. especially with friends who show abundant grace, don’t sweat the small stuff like messes and funky kid’s behavior, etc.

 

 

friends! super fun play time with winter last week :)

friends! super fun play time with winter last week ๐Ÿ™‚

 

 

this day? they were driving me bonkers!! grabbing each other, hollering out for me to stop running, walk a certain direction, pick up their dropped toy etc etc etc. oh boy.

this day? they were driving me bonkers!! grabbing each other, hollering out for me to stop running, walk a certain direction, pick up their dropped toy etc etc etc. oh boy.

 

 

this picture is *huge. had to capture it to show hubby, who wasn't at the appt. josiah is complying with the nurse - typically he *flips out. so thankful this day that he was obedient and delightful. (and this was a visit back to see the derm to get back on the high powered ointments to stop a *MAJOR* un-liveable flare for him. hate it. )

this picture is *huge. had to capture it to show hubby, who wasn’t at the appt. josiah is complying with the nurse – typically he *flips out. so thankful this day that he was obedient and delightful. (and this was a visit back to see the derm to get back on the high powered ointments to stop a *MAJOR* un-liveable flare for him. hate it. )

 

 

perhaps my FAVORITE PICTURE EVER!! taken at the jville park a couple weeks ago. LOVE them.

perhaps my FAVORITE PICTURE EVER!! taken at the jville park a couple weeks ago. LOVE them.

 

 

an indescribably sweet night out with a lifelong friend.

an indescribably sweet night out with a lifelong friend.

 

 

had to capture his growing hair :) it's actually much shorter and less curly than josiah's was at this age.

had to capture his growing hair ๐Ÿ™‚ it’s actually much shorter and less curly than josiah’s was at this age.

 

 

 

 

 

:: one ::

October 22, 2013

our littlest man, our precious baby caleb … has turned one.

i know, so cliche but *really*, how is this possible??

{as with nearly everything these days it seems, i am behind … in this case, in updating about his life and highlights! this blog really serves as a journal … a baby book – baby caleb doesn’t even have one ๐Ÿ˜ฆ – so when i am behind on sharing nuggets, i feel like they are lost forever. because goodness knows i can’t remember that much, hee hee.}

september 24th was his actual first birthday … 3:24pm, and crazy enough, i was at my ob/gyn for my yearly appt at the very same time to the minute as i was with him (the ob/gyn) for caleb’s birth one year earlier. wild!

he has just begun to really assert his opinion and his independence … most noticeable in the back-arching, yelping fit he throws if he doesn’t get his way (ie, the toy he’s clamoring for, entrance to daddy’s office, etc).

he is the most ADORABLE toddling new walker *ever*. i am so serious. ย he is the straight leg, he’s-just-about-to-topple-over with every step, giggling proud of himself walker! he has just taken off. in the past week, he’s transitioned from mostly crawling to mostly walking. and like i said, the most adorable walker i may have ever seen. ย hard to not swoop him up and take a big bite out of his squishy thigh when he toddles past.

he’s still got his 4 teeth – 2 on top, two on bottom. the 2 on top have a big gap which kills me. ๐Ÿ˜‰

he’s getting these curls … and the color of his hair changes in the light from a caramel golden brown to lighter and darker shades. little curls are coming up.

we were laughing today about the fact that his growing “vocabulary” (can it be called that?! lol) does NOT include anything about mommy or daddy. LOL. really, though, i think he does associate “da da” with daddy. but other sounds are more clear: “BAAA BAA” for ball is unmistakeable and specific. “nahh nahh” with a sheepish grin, for night night. and a lot of “da da” and “baa” for other things, like dog. he does a good “TT” sound, for train, etc. he tried to say “shoe” at the store last week and was pretty successful with the “sh” sound, again with a knowing sheepish grin.

HE IS SO SWEET!

seriously, he is just pretty much so sweet. sweetest disposition. toddles. gazes admiringly at brother and sister. loves nursing. prefers daddy to anyone else when he wants to hold fingers and walk around (less this week as he’s walking alone).

his appetite has waned this week … snotty nose? teething? but he had been loving a big bowl of brown rice and seasoned ground beef – fed to him and also on his tray for him to pick up in fistfuls. he’s a masterful cup-drinker, still. he loves a bowl of cereal and mostly prefers drinking the rice milk from the bowl. he loves applesauce. some days, avocado – other days, he spits it out. his taste changes so i keep introducing things. i need to be renewed in my focus on that as i can get in a rut. he will try almost anything and especially *anything in daddy’s bowl … both boys often end up on hubby’s lap during meals.

he’s been decidedly and pretty intensely “shy” and unwilling to be held by pretty much anyone but me, hubby and maddie. thankfully, last weekend my mom came over and her and maddie tag-teamed and watched the boys … and i was *thrilled* to hear that caleb did not cry once with her but was happy to be held, to ride in the stroller on a walk with her, etc. (this is HUGE = our first official date since his birth). he is just starting to not pucker and cry so much at nearly anyone who approaches him, including extended family.

sleep … oh sweet sleep. so, the good news is that i have been completely UNstressed about “sleep training” with this baby. it dominated so much of my mind with josiah and really robbed me of SO much joy during those many months. ย i have just completely relaxed in to what was with caleb … and what was, and is, is that he prefers sleeping next to me. or on me. but for sure in my arms.

i keep thinking he is transitioning to one daily nap – for the past month, there have been occasional days where he is happy and awake til 11:30 or 12 … then takes a solid 2+hour nap and is ready for bed about 7:30. but just when i think we are moving in that direction, he is clearly super tired and ready for that 10am morning nap … and then likely a quick afternoon nap.

so one year of having him right on me all night long has now grown … a bit wearisome. i know it’s time for some changes when i feel my irritation rising; when i can’t use the restroom or most of all, have quality time with my big girl because i am bound by this dependent little squishy boy. here’s the sobering reality: he is ready for bed around 8pm and nurses to sleep; he wakes within TWO hours and out of sheer exhaustion, i have been nursing him back to sleep … then either putting him back (in his playpen in our closet) or letting him stay in our bed. either way, in a couple hours or less, he is awake again. and so it continues til 7am-ish.

so what i know is that the pattern of getting to nurse upon every waking needs to change and when his congestion is all cleared up, it will be time. ahh, fun parenting times … *sigh*.

yesterday hubby was commenting on how chill, how easy cool and awesome this baby is … so true. i know i’ve said it before but wow, he is pure sweetness.

ok, time for a photo dump!

pointing out the duck in his favorite book

pointing out the duck in his favorite book

at the bottom of the tunnel slide at one our favorite parks ;)

at the bottom of the tunnel slide at one our favorite parks ๐Ÿ˜‰

umm, love this

umm, love this

bummed it is blurry but dang, those gap teeth

bummed it is blurry but dang, those gap teeth

brothers ... they look so different to me even though i constantly hear how much they look alike.

brothers … they look so different to me even though i constantly hear how much they look alike.

tops of their heads while walking ... daily walks!

tops of their heads while walking … daily walks!

maddie caught both boys on mama's lap ... they laughing!

maddie caught both boys on mama’s lap … they are laughing

my boys. my precious, growing-up boys.

i am seriously behind on updates and it pains my heart to realize the time that has flown and the highlights that i have *not captured. so i am remedying that, for now. ๐Ÿ˜‰ and be forewarned: this is long!

caleb michael

our squishy love bug who is honestly just so awesome. he makes my heart so happy. and sad, to see him growing and getting so close to 1 and then boom, he’ll be a big toddler?! whaaaat. stop.

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but really, he is pure squishy goodness. he is mellow, happy, and quick to smile almost always.

he is *just starting to really move! he got serious about rolling over right as we were moving (mid-june) and just this past week is doing a flop/crawl and getting across the floor. ย until now, he has been happily chill and in one place … which is lovely as far as supervision goes. ๐Ÿ™‚ i am in no hurry for these big milestones this time around, that’s for sure. he’s been chubbily chill and we’ve been cool with it. lol.

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just as i’d hoped, a rhythm is coming together and is looking like this, most days: he’s awake and ready to be up around 7am (laying in bed, nursing and cuddling before this). after being up about 1/2 hour, i feed him something … it varies but his appetite for food has been rapidly increasing. he’s ready for his morning nap between 9:30-10:00. he nurses to sleep and sleeps an hour, average … some days longer. shortly after morning nap he eats another good meal in the highchair and then plays … hangs out … often in the walker or exersaucer or with toys on the floor. he is ready for his afternoon nap around 2pm, again nursing to sleep. when he wakes, in about an hour, he’s usually up for the duration .. sometimes still sneaking in a quick evening nap (5pm-ish) but mostly up until he is ready for bedtime around 8pm.

it’s interesting: i’ve just totally had *no* angst and focus on the whole nighttime sleep/”sleep training” with this little guy. he sleeps happiest with me. so, i lay him in his playpen (in our walk in closet in our room) when he first falls asleep and he sleeps for a few hours. then he wakes, i bring him in our bed, and he nurses back to sleep. we basically sleep well til morning after that. i am wondering when i will have that sense of – i am *done* with this arrangement and ready for change. i don’t have that deep motivation yet. mostly, he is SOOOOOO precious and soft and yummy and cuddly that all is good.

one funny thing: he goes totally crazy stressed out wacky when he sees hubby – until hubby holds him. seriously. like, arms pumping and grunting mad until daddy holds him. every single time. to the point that i hesitate to bring him with me to hubby’s office if i am taking him a cup of coffee or something, lest the freak out mode ensues. ha. he does love his daddy, that’s for sure.

and he loves his brother, despite the occasional abuse inflicted upon him. he laughs hysterically watching josiah, and just lights up whenever his brother is around. they are so stinking cute together.

his hair is noticeably growing the past few weeks. it never fell out like josiah’s did, but looking back i can see where it looks thinner … now just this golden brown preciousness, and starting to curl around the edges. ๐Ÿ™‚ love.

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not sure his weight, but he is fitting in 18 months clothes generally, size 4 diaper.

he loves avocado (in the spoon), real food (like ground beef and rice with broth) and occasionally purees. i am completely relaxed about food with him (too much maybe?) and let him sample what we are having when he clamors for it. which is usually always. he prefers things off our forks. he is a pro drinking out of big cups.

sunday night i left him with daddy for the first time since his birth! i was invited to a concert at britt with a dear friend (what an incredible night!) and my sweet friend lori gave me some of her frozen pumped breast milk. (i *hate* pumping and only did a few times with caleb. it’s just a pain and i’ve had no need to, until now. and after the move, i can’t find the pump – darn!). he took the bottle – some of it – and otherwise did fine with daddy, despite some tears. he was sleeping on hubby’s chest when i got home, both of them snoring away. presh.

he has completely lost interest in the pacifier in the past month. he used to take it when he was really tired, and it was a tool in him falling asleep. but during our transition month, he became less and less interested … and now, it’s been many weeks since he’s used it. cool by me.

he is so verbal! lots of “tuh tuh tuh” and “duh duh duh”.

he is pulling himself up to standing and *loves* standing up.

he is a pure joy, a gift and blessing.

on "the blanket"!

on “the blanket”!

here is josiah on that blanket at nine months … fun to see!

at the park a few weeks ago ... fun!

at the park a few weeks ago … fun!

josiah michael

where do i begin with this boy?? this incredible boy, who so often seems way older than his 27 months.

his language is mind-boggling at times. more than that, his thought processes and comprehension. and memory. just the other night, i was putting lotions on him and he held up the container (of his recent favorite, organic african shea butter) and he said, literally: “the lotion’s almost gone, mama. we need to go to the store and get some more.” yes, we do, my sweet son. crazy.

he loved this stroller at uncle jerry's house!

he loved this stroller at uncle jerry’s house!

he maintains his deep love for “trash” … all kinds, especially in cans. this may be his life calling. lol. if a lid is ajar (on a trash can or *anything, really) it must be closed. he likes nothing better than to get to take out the trash.

he is JUST like his daddy: detail-oriented. he will stop in his tracks and reverse course to go close a drawer or door or cupboard left open. he knows where everything belongs and loves returning things to their place.

he loves his blanket and paci more every day i think. we are in trouble, haa. he has this certain voice when he wants it, and it’s usually when he is sleepy or wants to sit on the couch and watch a show (his faves are dora and “strawberry cupcake”).

he says “good” like this: “gwid”.

he knows all his numbers and many letters. last week he was drawing “1” all over the place.

he continues to have an eerie memory for books. like, after hearing them a FEW times, can recite full pages. even if it’s been weeks. yesterday i said a phrase similar to one in the book “wemberly worried” ( i said, “big ones, little ones and things in between” about something) and looked at him and asked, “which book was that from?” and he smiled and said, “wemberly worried.”

silly boy in seattle!

silly boy in seattle!

his total favorite books right now are all the ones that have dump trucks (“dunk trucks”) and tractors. his obsession.

when we read, he points to things and asks, “what’s this? what’s this?” about random little objects on the pages. constantly. he is soo curious.

he was sitting at his little table for meals (next to our regular dining table) but that was crazy – he would get up constantly, eating mid-walk. no thanks. so we’ve put the booster seat on a chair at the table. much better.

this morning before breakfast he asked for us to pray. after we prayed i said, “thank you, josiah” and he said, “thank GOD.” yes, my love.

he is so willful! and SOOO nonstop. really. lately, he’s been throwing things … just because, or when he’s mad. he tests boundaries constantly. and he loves them – the boundaries – happily repeating them. his favorite boundary is one that daddy drilled in to his brain: NO walking in the street. ever. he is so darling about this one, paying close attention and asking to be held should we park where he is next to the street, etc.

he got a trike last week which is great! perfect for him. he is doing great on it, with a little push from behind he’s got it.

“i do it! josiah do it!” is his favorite phrase.

he takes a great nap every day, usually 1:30-4pm.

sleep had been pretty rough at night, with his poor skin bothering him so bad. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ hate it. his eczema has been worse lately … more than ever. and he was miserable at night. we saw his precious “doctor” last week (really, a FNP) and got a referral to an allergist in order to know for sure what may be underlying things. for now, we continue to try any measure we can to help and heal. eczema aside, he does great sleeping: bedtime routine is a bath, lotions and teeth, then books (with me, usually at least 4 books!) and then some rocking. (one of our little routines, and sorry if this is tmi, but after reading i tell him i will rock him for a little bit. he asks to see “nursings” and i say, “how many?” and he smiles and says, “you always say two!” because i used to say that to him! so he cuddles next to nursings for a few minutes. happy boy :)) then it’s in the crib, night light on, paci and blanket in hand. he plays in there a bit before going to sleep.

oh! so for a time there he seemed so shy around friends but oh boy has that changed. he LOVES family, friends, seeing people. and a few times he’s loved it *too much, hugging the littles a bit close or tight when they are not wanting so much affection. ๐Ÿ™‚ it’s hard, teaching boundaries and respectful play rules at this age … we are learning. lots of learning about taking turns with his brother, especially because they always want the same toy at the very.same.instant. of course.

yesterday he looked up at me with great animation and said, “hey!!! wanna make a smooo-vie, mama??” love!

i cut his hair last week … second time and i perhaps went a little overboard this time, determined to get the hair out of his eyes (it’s been bothering him a lot). his hair is so gorgeous and forgiving, so hopefully it is ok. i think he is pretty darling.

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our sweet boy, my baby, is 6 months.

how is this happening?! i just read josiah’s 6 month postย and it’s so interesting to read their similarities and differences! most notable for me is that caleb is NOT moving, haa! like, at all. the boy hasn’t fully rolled over yet!! crazy. and yet, fine. like his pediatrician (love love love her) said, bigger babies often roll later. there is just more to roll. ย at his 5 month appointment, he was in the 100% percentile for weight and the 90% for height (or vice versa, don’t have the stats right here) so yep, there’s a bit more to roll than his long lean green bean big brother!

he is a perfectly angelic sweet love. truly. he is content, smiles generously and constantly, and loves spitting, making raspberries, and silly voice sounds. he grabs like a madman, often yanking the attachments from his exersaucer, and gets them quickly in his mouth. and yes, he is finally enjoying the exersaucer! he still will chill in the bouncy seat, entertained by the dangly things to grab. his reflection totally tickles his socks off!

he is on much LESS of a rhythm and schedule than josiah was … i generally just feel SO MUCH MORE relaxed about making sure everything goes “just so” – the structure provided me beautiful sanity with josiah, but with caleb the flexibility is working best. mostly, he eats every 3 hours but truly that is a rough estimate. and mostly, he is on a sleep-eat-wake cycle but again, there are days that feeding him to sleep works best (when nothing else will).

the past several days have been tricky about the getting-him-to-sleep process. unfortunately, CIO (crying it out) just isn’t tenable with my babies, who itch terribly (and the crying and upset worsens the itchies). poor caleb’s head and neck are really irritated and itchy, so he often has a hard time settling to sleep ;( i have this soft little “brush” that i use to brush, brush, brush his hair and he loooooves that. swaddling is out – he breaks free quickly. sometimes face down will be a happy place for him but other times, he’ll just rub his face so hard (with “gloves” on his hands always). i’ve found that burrowing in to a blanket, with the paci and some head brushing, tends to settle him happily.

i am feeling the need to create more consistency with the nighttime routine. i don’t bathe him nightly, but he definitely is sleepy and i’ve found that it’s really “bedtime” for him in the late evening (7-ish). i’ve been putting him in the playpen near our bed and he wakes again for sure (sometimes multiple times, especially if i’m trying to watch a show! lol) between 9-10pm-ish. then a few times lately i’ve been able to lay him right back down in the playpen and he’ll sleep a couple more hours before waking.

i’ve had such a beautiful shift in my mind about the whole (loaded, heavy) subject of SLEEP. it’s such a focus: how’s your baby sleeping?? and the million dollar question: is he sleeping through the night?? and i’ve just accepted that during this season of parenting babies, i won’t get a lot of sleep. and that’s ok. really, it is. when i let go of this angst about not getting “enough” and just surrender to what is, a great peace follows. my sweet baby loves cuddling with mama. and honestly, when i blink he will be almost 2 like his big brother, a big boy sleeper, and these yummy infant days will be gone. so it is ok, fine and dare i say pretty normal? that he loves closeness to mama; that he is most comfortable right there?

he has just started showing interest in foods the past couple weeks, and i’ve been in no hurry to start feeding him. i *finally pumped some breast milk last week (first time) to mix with a banana, which we did on sunday. he was mildly interested but of course not very “successful” with getting much in his mouth :). i haven’t given him any more. i did buy some organic brown rice cereal and may try that soon. we’ll see.

he is losing hair, just like josiah did … so it’s kind of patchy in the back but he still has quite a bit on top. can’t wait to see how it grows and changes!

oh, how you are loved, sweet baby caleb!!!ย 

my precious babies, love ...

my precious babies, love …

can't resist this one!

can’t resist this one!

squish! those feet!!

squish! those feet!!

a bit blurry but hilarious! eating up the exersaucer.

a bit blurry but hilarious! eating up the exersaucer.

hi self :)

hi self ๐Ÿ™‚

fell asleep on daddy, holding his hand like this ...

fell asleep on daddy, holding his hand like this …

partial roll? :)

partial roll? ๐Ÿ™‚

5mos2

5mos3

grab and eat!!

5mos4

my sweet boy!!

hibrother

well hello, brother

5mossleeping

aww, my favorite

anniv2

5mos6

oh, our sweet boy … 5 months!!

you continue to be absolute sweetness … squishy, smiling, and a joy. your belly laughs and giggles this month are the BEST!!

you are intently grabbing things and putting them in your mouth – a couple weeks ago, it was amazing to watch you take your paci in and out of your mouth.

at your doctor appointment last week, you weighed 18 1/2 lbs (90% percentile) and your length was the 100% percentile!

you do *not like the exersaucer (your brother loved it at this age) but are content still hanging in your bouncy seat, grabbing at the hanging toys … or laying on a blanket, either on your belly or back (but both get old in a few minutes). you are kind of liking the bumbo seat, in short bursts.

you’re not rolling over yet but are leaning … your doctor shared that often with bigger, stockier babies, it is simply more difficult to roll over. ha. you will when you are ready ๐Ÿ™‚

your skin is uncomfortable ๐Ÿ˜ฆ you have itchies primarily on your head, on the little bridge between your nose, and your neck. we’ve tried a range of lotions on you and your skin responds best, right now, to aquaphor.

you are on less of a tight schedule than your big brother – still, generally,ย it’s sleep-eat-wake … but i am much more relaxed about it. this past week, you’ve had a harder time relaxing to sleep for your naps, so a few times i’ve nursed you to sleep which has made you happy…

sleeping seems to be changing up – the past week, you’ve not always taken a nap on the “cycle” but rather, seem to be moving toward a few bigger naps during the day. you definitely is ready for a nap after about an hour of waking in the morning. after that, it’s anyone’s guess ๐Ÿ™‚

at night, you prefer being close to mama. many nights, you’ll be cuddled next to me and will sleep great, waking a few times to nurse and sleep.

(mama had an epiphany last week after reading yet another “sleep training” book/article/piece of advice: none of the information – no matter how well-intentioned and helpful for others – applies to my babies who are miserable with eczema. period. we will not allow our babies to be miserable and “cry it out” when their skin is on fire and the crying = stress = more itchies. unconscionable. so as we work, keep working …. to find healing … in the meantime, we comfort our babies. and the more that mama lets go of the “shoulds” and embraces the brevity of this season, the less stressful it is. really.)

you are exclusively breastfed and showing only minimal interest in food – really, your interest is in cups and objects moving to a mouth. you love to suck on the bottom of a water bottle! i am in NO hurry to introduce foods and discussed with our ped that i will likely wait until 6 months.

you *love* watching your brother and find him completely entertaining! you also love watching cartoons and completely move to make sure you can see the screen!

you are completely amazing, delicious and i want to just freeze time … stay in mama’s arms a bit longer!!

(here is the post about josiah at 5 months … so fun to read and see the pics!)

just for fun, here is josiah at 5 months …

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and caleb …

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three years ago

February 11, 2013

i started sharing my thoughts and my life in this little space.

i am so glad that i did! i love having a place that holds our story, our pictures, our life … so much that i would have forgotten had i not put the words here. so, i am thankful for the sweet friends who encouraged me to start sharing ย …

here is my very first post, which makes me smile.

i think about how, just a few days ago (and before reading this original post again) i whispered to my husband, “can i please get dressed and go to a job?? because that would be so much easier.” it had been a particularly grueling day here, schooling with bad attitudes (teacher and student, lol), relentless toddler and baby needs, unending chores. and a serious case of mama-grumpy.

so yes, as i shared those years ago, going to a job does represent a grand distraction from the difficult and monotonous and glorious work of raising ย these kids and keeping bellies full and clothes clean and routines steady.

it does amaze me to realize that in the three short years of this blog, i have birthed TWO boys! the desire of my heart, more babies … and GOD has blessed us with two. miracles!

speaking of those miracle blessings …

 

 

watching dora

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